This is so hard.....I am watching his body start to shut down.
I have a few questions.
I will be happy when toward the end, Hospice will be here, but I had no idea how hard it is to care for a person who is near death. I mean, by most standards I am probably excellent but to me, I just don't feel I can be effective enough. My partner reverted to German and I have to beg him to speak English. I think he is questioning who I am. He had to have Lorazepam twice last night. They also have him on Dexamethasone 1 per day. His pnemonia is getting worse. Or at least the rasping. Sorry about spelling. I have to be careful about what I feed him. I gave him apple juice this morning and a veggie and juice smoothie. NO MILK. Just water ice or OJ in the smoothie. I slept next to him in his Hosp bed last night. I must have been exhausted as I think I had about 2 in of room. What else would you suggest I do to make him comfortable or what has worked for you at this point. His regular doctor is the Hospice Doc and he is suppose to stop by this weekend. We will see if that happens. Chaplan came yesterday. He is carrying on conversations that do not make sense and he is seeing so many people. He finally asked me if this was an Open House?