Guilt is overwhelming me!
I am back on here the doctor up my meds because I was depressed since the last time I was on here it help a lot. Today it was very hot again and I was busy taking care of my Mom all day which I don't mine but when she ask me to heat up her yogurt I told her no that is pushing it. Mean while all the fans are on been getting her to drink more water. Because she is drinking more water she is peeing more and she pee in her pants but she wears one big pad plus 6 little panty liners so some got on the sides of the underwear so I was helping her and we took the pads off and I said we don't need to change your underwear so I put fresh pads but now I am feeling like I did wrong she was okay with it But I felt guilty and said sorry that I didn't want to heat up her yogurt I get impatience sometimes and feel so horrible after, my sister and brother don't even offer to help they live an hour away just makes me mad. I am also cooking and doing laundry for my Step Dad I ask him to put the glass jars in the recycle today he said I will show you where to put them I said I am to busy besides that's not my job and I am very busy which I was, then he said I am busy too reading the newspaper I just bit my tongue and said to my Mom I can't do everything she said I know your not a slave? I thought to myself I wonder sometimes.