Guilt and shame eating me alive.
My mom who was recently diagnosed with a benign brain tumor by a psychiatrist and has schizophrenic type of paranoia and also has many other ailments including diabetes 2, she is in a wheelchair very weak with a walker and probably won’t do much better though she has done amazing I don’t think she will be where she wants to be. I foolishly brought her out due to her manipulative ways, hence the title. It’s been 4 days, she sweet talks the doctor and then she pretty much threatens me and shakes her fist at me. I am scared too. I was naive about being able to take care of her. I have taken care of her and lived with her from 29 of 31 years. The 2 years were the hardest as her brain tumor and her recovery were bad. She is a miracle but dementia came up, recently. She will not listen to my sound advice and negates a lot of the professionals suggestion. I am not a representative or her POA and she will not do it. She has some lucidity. So I have a call into her doctor to chat with him about what is going on and this is having a negative effect on my health, she needs a new place to go for her needs. So burned out from her dementia and I think the 29 yrs of her passive aggression, only now it’s worse. I am getting panic attacks and I need health care attention but I am on a fixed budget a need to get back to work so I can get some insurance to help me. But I am afraid I will be trapped due to my stupid naivety...so much burden to bare I have talked to the the home health care evaluation nurse and she is going to get me a social worker so we can see what can do for both of us. I just can’t do it anymore. She has too many complex issues. I just hate dementia and the brain tumor but I love mom, especially in her funny lucid moments. Please let them help find her a great place...we are in crisis. Thanks for any support.