Getting over depression because of mom's decline.
I have found myself totally obsessed with the heartbreak over my mother's physical and mental decline. She is in a nursing home and is now getting to the point where she can barely speak, and is not eating, or at least not much solid food. I can't accept the fact that there is nothing I can do for her, and I feel so guilty if I miss a day going to see her. I work a very demanding job, and I have some problems with my own health that makes me tired. How do I stop being so depressed over this situation? I don't sleep well, and I find myself crying and thinking about her 24/7. I would like to have a happy life, but how can I when she is in this condition? I feel guilty if I even eat foods that she once loved. Can anyone help me? I have even thought about ending my own life just to end the pain, but I wouldn't want to leave her and my husband.