I feel like I am being punished....
Mom is slipping away mentally and I get frustrated with her and don't like when I get that way. I "think" I am doing the best I can with her on top of working full time and trying to spend time with my husband, family and friends. My oldest DD and her son moved home 2 months ago and now my youngest DD and her son are moving home. Our house will be bursting at the seams and I am so tempted to let them live there as long as they pay the electric bill and cable bill and my husband and I move in with my Mom. His mom's health is failing too, and there are times he has to go and spend the night with her. I have a break from taking care of Mom right now as my sister is in town for another week.
I am giving up the one thing that I enjoyed...sewing. That room needs to be used for the grandbaby and so I am packing it all up. I don't have time to sew, nor do I have the joy and excitement I used to have when I did sew.
Am I being punished for wanting a nice, calm life? For not doing something I should have? I feel like I am letting my Daddy down if I don't keep Mom at home and doing my absolute best.
Too bad I don't drink :)