Excuse me while I dissolve.

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This weekend, I will be accompanying my 82 year old dad and my fiance "Ff" on the 8-hour trip to my parents' old country house, which we put on the market after my mom died 2 years ago. This will be the third time in two years. My mom and I loved that house. I have a sinking feeling of dread, regret, and horror about selling it. But it is too far away for any of us to enjoy it...so I hope to sell it to a nice person who will love it as we did.

I dread going back there in the company of my dad. He is as cheap, rigid, and full of self-denial and denial of everyone else as my mom was generous, flexible, and fun-loving. Dad is also more and more delusional, forgetful, and full of bizarre ideas. Of course, he is also still devastated at my mom's loss. So I try not to blame him.

But being with him makes me feel rotten and hated. Ff is no help because he cannot talk back or say no to seniors, so he complains about my dad to me and tells me I have to be more firm with him.

An old friend of the family, "Tio," would like to come with us to support me and I think that would help me get through this. Tio is 87 himself and may not get another chance to see the place (where he also spent many happy summers with us). But dad hates him now, mostly I think because he is jealous that my sister and I spend time with him.

Dad thinks that the old furniture, tools, and stuff in the house are going to be important to a buyer--so he doesn't want us to take anything. He'd rather give sentimental items to a stranger than to his daughter. Ff wants to get stuff from the house too, but won't say so to my dad's face...so I have to and I am therefore acquisitive. Never mind that I am the one who found the realtor, who will be working all weekend to clean the place, who is taking time off work to do this trip.

Dad thinks there is a prospective buyer and wants to go show him all the tools and stuff. This guy seems like anything but reliable from the emails I have exchanged with him.

When I am around my dad, his attitude of denial permeates everything and I start thinking I don't have enough money and I shouldn't eat and I should just dissolve. Tio makes me laugh and makes me feel supported. It would also make me feel a bit better about this awful trip if I could take a few nice things my mom would have wanted me to have.

I am thinking--and my sister, who has POA and is the Executor of my parents estate, agrees--we should just bring Tio and take a few things that we want, while gently explaining to Dad that Mom would want it this way. But I don't want to disempower Dad and deepen his misery. But I also don't want to put up with him treating me like dirt! This is making me crazy and I am also thinking of just refusing to go.

I know--its one weekend. Just do it. But the last time, and the time before that, were supposed to be the last time too. Then dad wants to go and pick up a bathroom scale he left, or a grill, or speak to some mythical buyer. And Ff keeps saying yes, and then I have no choice.


You say "Dad is also more and more delusional, forgetful, and full of bizarre ideas". If his desires are not practical or reasonable, and it would be better to get the job done without his meddling. Sis has POA so you have the power to do what is necessary, you will have enough get done without his unreasonable meddling. YOU would like one last chance to revisit your childhood home and pick out a memento or two, so why is dad coming along at all? Seems like it would have been better to just give him a report after the fact and keep the details vague or fudge the truth..."Oh yes dad, I talked to that guy about the _______ and he paid a reasonable price for it".

Unfortunately plans have been made and you probably can't back out now, so you will just have to make the best of it. Deflect and redirect your dad. Listen to his advice, and then just go ahead and do whatever needs to be done anyway. Tio may be a good resource if he is on board with the plan to help to distract your dad, lots of "remember when" stories to distract him from things??

Ff is a real problem and you need to establish some ground rules ASAP. You say he defers to dad then complains after the fact to you ( passive aggressive behavior). "Ff keeps saying yes, and then I have no choice". That has got to end now or it will be the cause of serious difficulties in the future.
Is dad suffering from dementia? It sounds like he has some symptoms. If so, it is impossible to reason with him. Learn more about the signs of dementia on this site. With my dad, who has mild to moderate dementia, we just have to take care of some financial and household issues in spite of him. My mom and I can't get him to agree to the most basic and simple things, so as much as possible we just do what has to be done and bamboozle him here and there if necessary.
You're not the one to go. If the family wants something done, they need to send someone who has a clearer picture of the end result than you do. Your post is filled with contradictions. Dad needs a leader right now...not an enabler.
Orr, dad needs to stay home. I think you'd be just fine if he wasn't there...
Oh boy - you deserve to dissolve.

Confusion, delusions, paranoia, and being mean are not normal age-related decline. A lot of family doctors will say that because they are not trained on the specialties of aging. Just like they aren't trained in pediatrics. When you can (which is ASAP), have dad seen by a geriatric specialist who will not miss these red flags.

How to get dad to cooperate with going to this new doctor? However you can. Say it's for insurance. Say it's for benefits. Say you don't know why, you were just told to do this by the doctor's office. Whatever you think will work.

Your fiancé needs to be educated on dementia as well, so he won't undermine you or what you and your sister will need to do and how you will have to get it done. There is a fine line between saying yes to placate and saying yes with the intent to follow through even if bad results are guaranteed.
Thanks for the responses everyone. Going without Dad would be much better but is not an option. We are going mainly because dad wants to pick up a few things (800 miles for a bathroom scale...I know) and because he really enjoys long drives. We feel for him b/c he lost everything when Mom died, this is a way to at least give him something.

I agree about dementia--but is there anything you can do about it? What difference would it really make once we had that diagnosis, if we all know that's what's happening? I'll look into it further on this site, thanks.

I am going to focus on the woods and the trees, bring my dogs and watch them run and play, and eat lots of empty calories to counter Dad's nutty self-denial bordering on anorexia (he's always been that way about food, though worse now...I think it gives him something he can control).

I feel awful about how dad treats Tio, who gets sweeter and more giving as Dad gets more grumpy and cheaper. Want to bring Tio to do something nice for Tio but it might just make dad even more impossible to be around.
It may not be healthy for you or Dad to go back there. Just list it with a realtor and give them the keys. As far as FF taking items, this only serves to enrage your father and increase his sense of loss. Don't do it. Let it go. If there is one thing that makes his blood boil, it is having a Picker covet mother's treasures.
Hope dad never finds out the new buyer will probably toss the stuff, gut the house and turn it into something up to date and unrecognizable to your dad! That is what happened to our family home.. and it did need updates and looks awesome now... but it would break my moms heart to see it. I am in touch with the new owners.. they did alot of wall removals, upgrades.. it is awesome and open and Air conditioned...LOL Mom says she would like to see it, but then she says... NO.
Well I talked to Dad last night and it emerged that his concern about Tio was that "I just don't want to pay for food for another person." (Dad is a millionaire, literally, but goes to the bank regularly to make sure he "has enough to buy laundry detergent"). Once I assured him I would pay for Tio's food, he said he could come.

We have a great Realtor who understands the sentimental value of the house and who thinks she has a buyer who loves the house as is. She also said that when we come up, we can just mark the stuff we want and she'll get it to us when the house sells. Brilliant!

I agree totally with cwillie and windyridge that at this stage of unreasonableness you have to just work around Dad. You try to make him feel empowered and placated and then you just do what needs to be done without telling him.
MAYBE YOU CAN\\\\\\\sorrry, its dark now and cant see keyboard....try to match things to people you know, see if they would like any of it. I rented a POD crammed everything in, fixed up house, and moved POD away to shovel through it Gave mostly eveything away...kept a few things, tucked things away, brother took some, GoodWill took a lot.

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