My dad is so angry at me all of the time.
My dad is so angry at me all of the time. He says ugly things to me and about me. Most days I can handle it but sometimes like today I blow up at him. He either doesn't understand or doesn't care how he hurts me or maybe a little of both. I try to keep the stress levels down for my mom but sometimes I just have to tell him how I feel and how he is behaving. I have given up my house, my job and most of my friends to care for my parents (which I did willingly) but he tells me daily how worthless I am and how wonderful the other 6 children (who all live out of state) are. These wonderful children that I get compared to have flat out refused to come and help when I have really needed some help. I have called them on several different occasions and been told no each time. I am the one who is here, I am the one who takes him places and I am the one who verbally abused on a daily basis. My heart is broken, I miss the dad I had, and I don't know what to do anymore. My mother is not strong enough to care for him on her own and almost died last winter from the stress. I can't leave her alone with him. Their insurance doesn't cover nursing homes a we only qualify for 8 hours of respite per month. I guess I know the answers to what is happening here, I just feel very alone and unappreciated. No my siblings do not offer any financial help either. I'm tired. I don't know where to go for help. I've talked to every social worker at the VA and talked to their primary insurance for help. There is nothing more they have to offer. I know that I just have to keep on keepin' on. I guess I just wanted to know if there are other people out there that understand what life is like right now for me. I'm not looking for pity. I just needed a place to vent and maybe get some suggestions for how to deal with being the target for all of his anger. How to not take it so personally. Thanks for listening.