I feel guilty because caring for mom makes me depressed and frustrated.
Mom is not doing well, has dementia and depression and has her third urinary tract infection since August. Had her in the emergency room twice for UTI because she has vomiting and diarea really bad with it. The last time, I sat on a hard chair in the emergency room from midnight until 6 am watching her vomit. This time I knew what to look for and had the home health nurse test her urine as soon as she started vomiting and sure enough, another UTI so back on antibiotics again. She can't remember to take her bucket with her and vomits on her very light beige carpeting. She also can't control her bowels and wears depends, but has had diarea several times and left a black trail on the carpeting. This is not fun!!!! :(
I keep telling myself this is where God wants me to be and He is taking care of me. I am His servent. This too shall pass. But it's very depressing and frustrating. I miss my life, babysitting my grandkids, my friends, my church, and my independence. I have no life here, just taking care of her and cleaning up after her. She treats me like I'm twelve. I know some of you have it so much worse than I do. I have to be strong and have patience. I feel guilty because my frustration shows in my tone of voice, but I can't seem to help it, it just comes out that way. I pray for God to help me deal with this cause I can't do it on my own.