I am still a little steamed about a reply from ferris 1 about my "busy" work order question. Look nobody is perfect.A lot of us are taking care of people that were not very nice to us and yet we are taking care of them. You know what, sometimes I don't care what she wants.There are days I can't stand the sound or sight of her.I am not proud of this ,yet this is how I feel. What is great about this site is it give a safe place to let out these thoughts. I was using up so much energy feeling guilty because I wasn't just feeling all hugs and kisses all the time with my mother.Yes I know that a lot of the behavior from these older folks is from fear,anxiety but you know sometimes nasty people get older and it doesn't all of a sudden turn them into nice people.Sometimes villains do get older.