Cant do it any more, but I have to.
Im new. My mom has been sick for a long time with heart disease. She also seems to have dementia, but doctor doesn't diagnose it. My sister has POA and said doctor says she has memory problems, but nothing more. I see a lot more, but maybe Im wrong.
The problem is that I m not really much of a caregiver due to my own disability. I did what I could in early years, but now, last few years, I cant do much. She calls me on the phone. and I am getting so depressed I cant listen anymore.
she was always a great lady with a lot of love and kindness. my best friend. and now that is gone. she is suffering. I know. she is in pain. I know. and she is dying. I know. I am grieving and feel lost. guilt abuot not doing what I ought to but cant do is bad. My sister is angry. I understand. Its all on her. I cook, I get cleaning done, shopping done, but not much more. I was trying to be emotionally support to her but now I cant listen. I just cant listen because it is so depressing. she is so depressed. and sick and everything is always wrong with everything. don't know if this is the place to post this. I am anxious. I am on meds for that. I am afraid a lot now. I don't know how I will cope when she dies. we were so close. I hate old age thank you.