Cannot handle abuse any longer.

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My mom has been in a nursing home/rehab since December. Prior to that she was living alone. She is unable to move in with any family. I was doing all of the caregiving, going shopping, laundry, pills, daily calls, doctor's, finances, etc. She went into rehab a year ago last May due to hypertensive encephalopathy. While there, they explained to me that she really shouldn't be living alone and we needed to get her on Medicaid. I started the process alone, as my brother didn't agree. They made me cancel appointments and wouldn't let me set anything up. Now she is at the point where she must have someone at home with her. We applied for Medicaid and she was approved. We were supposed to convert her over to community Medicaid and bring her home with a home health aide. However, my brother and mother were the ones pushing for this. I feel she needs more structure (so do her doctors and therapists).

I guess the biggest issue is that while I do everything, my brother is the one she praises. I take her out every Saturday and visit her during the week. I take her to appointments and get everything she wants. During the vast majority of these visits/outings, she has been abusive towards me. Both verbally and emotionally. I kept telling her if she continued to act like that I wouldn't do it anymore, but never followed through. Well, she finally got the assessment by the MLTC plan for home health care. They only allotted her 26 hours a week, which is not enough. Too boot, my husband had to go to the assessment because my brother has been MIA and I had to work. Although my brother is the one who wants her to go home and has POA, he has done nothing to get her there. I know if she goes home, especially with only 26 hours, I will be beyond stressed out and abused by her. So I told both her and the company helping us to get the Medicaid coverage, that I am no longer willing to help. If my brother wants her home, he can be the one to go through these meetings and set everything up. Needless to say, he isn't responding and now my mother is pitching a fit. She is calling everyone she knows trying to get to me. I have not called her and plan on taking the weekend off. I just wanted to put it down here to work through some of the awful guilt I am feeling.


In your shoes I would stick to my plans. This is your brother's circus. He thinks the girls (you and his mother) will take care of everything. They will try to guilt you and talk bad to anyone who will listen. After your mother comes home, Brother may discover it was indeed a bad idea. If your mother calls you, tell her sweetly that Brother is handling everything, so she'll have to talk to him. Of course, Mom will yell at you, but no law says you can't get off the phone. I hope your brother discovers soon that you and the doctors were right and that you are not just a tool to make your mother and him happy. It is his idea and his responsibility. I suspect that your mother said she wanted to come home, so he decided he would make it happen by dumping it all on you.
Just what Jessie said.

Your brother is POA (has the responsibility to get her cared for) and none of the care-giving duties. If she wants the responsibility (and mom thinks he's such a jewel) then he needs to step up.

And if mom yells, you say "I'm sorry you're feeling poorly. Please call me when you're feeling better."
I agree with you. You need to get out from under the total care of your mother. If your brother is willing to help at all, he should do so quickly. Otherwise, you should not accept anymore responsibility for the care of your Mom or her support (monetarily)!
If she has been in a home, is it possible for her to stay there? It would make more sense and she would have total care.
You go Staar! Stick to your guns, and let the big wonderful brother take over..And if mom calls to rant and rave, you can always do what I did a few times to my daughter.. just lay the phone down and go about your busness.They run out of steam when they realize they aren;t getting any attention..LOL
You are completely right. No one should put up with abuse from the very person they are helping.

Tell social services that they must call you brother. He is POA, the ball is in his court.

Do not answer the phone. Do not return calls.

I know the quilt you are feeling. I walked out on a disabled guy...he was without help, family, or friends...but..I warned him I would not endure his abuse. He threw a cup of hot coffee at me in Starbucks because I didn't get it with cream. The next time he was berating me in the car rental....I turned on my heel and walk out. Never looked back. Never called. Never took any calls. I am sure the Avis called adult social service to get him the care he had to have.

Wishing you strength in standing your ground. Obviously you know what she can & can't do & your brother just wants you to continue handling everything. As long as you do then mom & brother can continue on happily while you suffer. No way,no guilt, no regret. If he wants mom to go home than he can deal with the reality. Who knows maybe he'll step up.
At one point my brother had the brilliant idea that he should help me out by taking over my DPOA responsibilities. This was after his many threats of taking it away from me didn't make me buckle- nor did my mother want him to have it as he has always been an "I'm always right, everyone else is wrong - and stupid" kind of guy.

When I told my brother he could take over - I also told him that taking over meant going to doctor appointments, shopping for Depends, dealing with the caregiver agency, managing all medication and being on call 24/7 - beyond visiting 2-3 times a week - he backed down so quickly he probably got whiplash.

How is it these pompous asses think we will continue to do all the grunt work while they Lord over the kingdom?

Practice saying this "My brother is taking care of that now. Let me give you his phone number".
The medical evaluation "She shouldn't be living alone" is not satisfied with 26 hours of in-home help. That would sure be a nice break for the person she was living with, but she is living alone. Which the evaluation said she shouldn't do. What part of "she really shouldn't be living alone" does your brother not understand?

The posts so far have been unanimous. Wash your hands of caring for an abusive mother. I love Rainmom's suggestion of the sentence you should memorize. "My brother is taking care of that now. Let me give you his phone number." You might want this one, too, in case a followup answer is needed: "I can't discuss that with you. My brother has power of attorney and you'll need to talk to him."

So that takes care of the agencies and vendors and creditors, etc. What about Mom? Whew! That one will be much harder just because of the guilt. Remember that Mom is great at pushing your buttons because she installed them in the first place. Discontinue all the chores you do for her. Drop the weekend lunches to once a month. If they are not pleasant, drop them altogether.

Also practice this sentence from BarbBrooklyn : "I'm sorry you're feeling poorly. Please call me when you're feeling better." And add this to your repertoire: "Mother, you know Brother is taking care of that now."

It is easy to say "don't feel guilty," but almost impossible to carry out. Remind yourself that you did NOTHING to deserve this guilt. You are not entitled to it! Give it up. There are plenty of people out there who really should feel guilty (many of them in elected positions, but that is a different topic) so free your guilt up. It belongs elsewhere.

And if you cannot get rid of the guilt, at least push it way to the back of your mind. Don't make any decisions based on that guilt. Just push it back.

Is your Mother at home now, or is this still in the planning stage?
Such wonderful responses! Memorize those responses of what to say to people. Roleplay so that they roll right off your tongue.

I think a lot about guilt, too. I know I feel guilty because I don't like being around my mother. Daughters are supposed to be their elderly mothers' slaves -- I do think society expects that of us. So many people have looked strangely at me when I tell them I will NEVER take my mother into my home.

You have a great chance to put it all off on your non-helpful brother. Do it! He's Mom's golden boy POA, so let him fulfill Mom's wishes. Let HIM be her caregiver for all but the 26 hours a Medicaid-paid caregiver is there.

We are all rooting for you to get out of this abusive situation. You can do it! Keep us updated.
Thank you everyone for the support. She is currently in a nursing home where my cousin works. My cousin sees her 5 days a week and even takes her down to rehab (she's a physical therapist assistant.) She now has Medicaid so can stay there. She is also in NY, which allows someone to go to an Assisted Living Program with community Medicaid. I put her on two wait lists for some very nice places, but they both have approximately year long waiting lists. I believe she is able to stay where she is until if/when an assisted living spot becomes available to her. I have stuck to my guns for this week. Although she isn't calling me, she has called my cousin and my uncle to ask them to take her to the bank and to her apartment to shower. My uncle called me to find out the situation and he agrees with me, so he told her he would visit her, but not take her home. He also plans on telling her and having her other sister tell her that she is in the best place she could be and she could have a nice life there if she would just stop being so negative about everything. I am sure it won't work, but I appreciate his support. As far as my brother goes, he is not responding to anything. We have all been calling him, but doesn't answer and has his voicemail full so that we cannot leave a message. He has also been emailed from the consulting firm about her situation. I know I am doing the right thing, but after years of abuse and taking care of her/rescuing her from herself and my brother, it is hard to take a step back. But for now, that is what I have to do for my own mental health. I truly appreciate everyone's support. Thank you all so much. :)

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