I cannot do this anymore.
I CAN not handle it anymore and I am going to have to put my beloved husband in some type of care. It will have to be in dementia care because he is beyond assisted living. I was hoping we could wait until he didn't know who I was but I can see that is beyond possible, I fear we may go into poverty doing this, but I do not know what else to do. He is up again after 5 times so far tonight. He will kill me long before he is in the stage where he does not remember me. What a horrible, horrible disease this is. He iis so young, 71, but dementia does not know that, or that he is a kind, wonderful person and does not deserve this. We do not deserve this. Some people might say I am giving up on him but they really have to walk a day in my shoes to truly understand, He has started running away and he just broke his collar bone in 3 places which is the 4th serious fall in the last four months. Every time he gets sick or falls he seems to go deeper in the dementia and I just don't know what to do.This is truly a living nightmare.