So... I must need a lesson in saying "NO", because I am completely exhausted! After becoming a rather instant caregiver a little over a week ago, I just want to spend some time... ALONE.
First, my original plans for the holidays were to get as far away from my family as possible...go on a ski trip and sip wine in front of a fireplace on Christmas Day. Instead, I felt a bit obligated to try to get my family together for a family gathering in the event that Dad's nearing the end.
I have had very little sleep (last night's trip to the ER and taking Dad to work with me today didn't help), and between running around at the last minute trying to plan a Christmas I don't even WANT to attend has gotten the best of me.
None of my siblings will help (it doesn't help that Dad treats them like crap too), and though my BF has been wonderful, I fear that between the added responsibility and daily meltdowns, he's going to leave...
I just feel ... alone. I didn't ask for this and as horrible as it sounds, I RESENT this...