Doe anyone else feel this way?
My mom lived with me for the past 7 months. She had COPD and congestive heart failure. She was intubated 5 times in 4 months. She spent time in rehab. Due to all the intubations she lost her ability to walk. Her heart was only pumping at 15%. Once I brought her home I had hospice step in. One evening she couldn't breath. She had signed a DNR so I called hospice and they started her on morphine. A week or so later she was getting agitated so they started her on ativan. She died 2 weeks ago and I feel like I killed her by letting them give her the drugs. I can't function at all. Has anyone else gone through this?