Afraid of what's to come...
Only female in family caring for dad. Brothers who've ignored requests to help out with dad (and mom before that) until 1.5 weeks ago, and now want my reasoning for making decisions over the past year, and are not so subtly accusing me of withholding information. The truth is, I gave up! No one responded to several of my attempts to communicate. The final straw was when I sat alone through dad's surgery that took place 1 mile from their homes. Before that, my kids and I spent Thanksgiving and Easter in the hospital with my dad - of course, we wouldn't have it any other way!! We love him and would never leave him there alone on a holiday. I don't regret that at all but it's just a little hard to take when siblings had the audacity to ask me to bring my Thanksgiving dish over to their house (from hospital) because they didn't have time to run over to get it (again, 1 mile away).
After brother (#1) accused me of withholding info about dad in a sibling group text, I copied and retexted (to the same group) a message from previous week where I had explained dad's failing condition to brother #1. This is hard to explain in writing - I hope it makes sense. He evidently thought I was trying to 'get' him by retexting the message. I honestly wasn't. I just don't have time or energy to defend myself and revisit the same conversation multiple times. I think I'm on the brink of being completely exhausted.
There's an inheritance involved - I don't know if that's a factor, but one brother recently married a financial planner who appears to be guiding their sudden interest. She's making suggestions that I've been making for years, and brothers shower her with praise. This is just the tip of the iceberg. Why is this happening?? I'm a nice, intelligent person, yet they ridicule much of what I say, and shower sisters in law with positive attention, all of whom are manipulative and unkind. I feel so ignored and disrespected. I work 2 jobs full time, am a single mom - youngest is almost grown... and am asking myself how did I let this happen? I feel pathetic. It doesn't matter what I do, the family overlooks it, to the point that they gave new sis in law (girlfriend at the time) my beloved grandmother's china and silver. I'm the only blood related female in the family. This really hurts. I'm in my early 50's and feel I'll never have what I mistakenly thought I had - a family!!!
In order to prevent what is surely going to be utter chaos once my dad passes (providing I outlive him), I've agreed to have xmas party at my house. I don't have fond feelings for these people right now, however, my thinking is that this is a pre emptive peace keeping move. Part of me feels disingenuous. But this is the hand I've been dealt. My dad has asked me, and only me, to handle everything - his care, and his estate, for him. I want to do a good job for my dad, and for everyone to respect me, and be kind!!! I feel very alone right now.
Can someone offer an alternative way to view this? Perhaps I'm just so worn out that this isn't as bad as it feels? Maybe after several days of sleep I'd feel better about it all?