Advances in medicine have ruined my life.
I may sound like a horrible person, but I'm pissed. The medical community is making a fortune on keeping people alive, and We, the Caregivers, are going broke. Not just financially, but emotionally as well.
Whatever happened to quality of life ? If they insist on keeping people alive beyond the point that they can care for themselves, then fork over the money and the facilities to care for them !!
Ten years ago, I embarked on this journey having no idea it would still be going on. Since then, I have been diagnosed with severe depression, I no longer have a social life, my husband had a nervous breakdown from trying to cope with my ungrateful and verbally abusive mother and lost his job and now she tells everyone that will listen to her that he's nuts.
I'm beaten down and worn out. I'm in the prime of my life and this was NOT MY PLAN !!
I have no children .. but wait a minute.. yes I do !! A 90 year old bitter old woman that finds pleasure in dragging me down with her.
I have no desire to have my life prolonged if all I can do is sit and have people care for me. That's not living .. that's simply existing.
And now that I've shared my rant, I'm going to go listen to some good old Pink Floyd and smoke.