I have begun to be a professional caregiver (non paid) Am I sick?
It started 5 years ago when my BIL had a stroke on the other side of the country. We (the only survivors, not married , no children) had to fly down and back a forth and take care of things, put him in a home, prep papers and dissolve his estate. It took months (into a year) to get things settled and still I handle things with his care about once a week via phone.
In the meantime my SIL who developed stage 4 brain cancer just prior to this. Subsequent 5 state away travel, surgeries care etc.... (not married, no children) was getting worse. We moved her in with us and cared for her until her passing. Again dissolve an estate etc... We were getting pretty good at this stuff.
Then 2 years ago my mom passed unexpectedly and I had to care for my father (5 states away), take care of all the finance and his business. 9 months later after countless trips back and forth I had to clean out his house and move everything and him in with me (I have 2 siblings, one in his town). They helped very little with the clean out but now its all on me.
I watch over my neighbors (87 and 94), I do the lawn and plow and odd jobs around the house. They have 2 children who live on the other side of the country and only visit once a year. I have become a sort of grandchild so to speak? I enjoy assisting them in need a couple days a week, help him when he falls etc. They do offer me some small amounts of cash for helping (lawn and plowing). I am glad to help, they are like the grandparents I never had to help.
Am I sick? I work at home and have the time to do it. I just feel so over whelmed at times. Dad is ambulatory but requires entertainment. He has his own space in our home and it is difficult at times with any parent child situation.
I feel like I am always reaching out for some crisis to fix. It is my nature. Pretty much when things are calm I am on pins and needles waiting for the next crisis to blow in. Do I have a sickness? I guess it is part of my being a firefighter for many years always helping people. Anyone else do this? I am looking for ways to concentrate more on my business and less on crisis. Tried going to the gym. (hate it). Tried walking (always an excuse), I have hobbies and a yard to work in etc... I just get so overwhelmed at times.