I feel numb.
Its a horrible feeling when you realize you are existing. I am the sole carer of my MIL who has vascular dementia, mental health issues, health problems and goes through stages of double incontinence. All through her life she has upset people with her nasty personality and now with dementia it has magnified her nasty nature. Its like being in the presence of someone dripping poison everyday to make life as difficult as possible for me. She is aggressive( her fists in my face) what comes out of her mouth is vile. She puts terrible stress and pressure on my husband and I and she is dangerous, leaving gas fires on unattended, leaving the house without saying, putting cooker rings on...but if you say anything WW3 breaks out. She says really personal hateful things to me and I try to ignore them...but I am so unhappy. I'm trying to be supportive to my husband( only child)...but I feel like running. Its like she is sucking the life blood out of us. Every day is a challenge :(