I am so torn up.
My father passed away 6 years ago and my mom has been lost ever since. She had been so dependent on him in every way, and has a hard time doing anything on her own, including making decisions. She had some health issues so I moved her in with my husband and my three children (under 12 years) last year. I work full time and when I come home, there is dinner, kids' activities to attend and chauffeur, laundry, ....etc,... I have replaced my dad as my mom depends on me for everything. There are language issues too English is not my mom's first language, although she can get along just fine if she tries. So, I am also the interpreter because she doesn't try to join our conversations unless it's through me. My daughter has been upset lately because she said that grandma called her crazy and not smart. I suspect that is not what she means but it is not an appropriate choice of words due to the language issue. She has also developed some weird quirks where she is a nervous wreck and worries about everything. I feel so torn over everything. All I seem to do is to taking care of everyone and making things OK. I just want to feel free and happy again. I just want to run away sometimes, but I know I can't. I love my mom and my family but I feel so stressed. I look into the mirror and somehow I can't see me anymore.