Q: I secretly wish my elderly father would hurry up and die. (I take care of him full-time) Does that make me a terrible person and how can I stop thinking this?
A: Wishing your elderly father will die doesn't make you a terrible person, but your thought do suggest that you're a person in need of some help in dealing with your thoughts. Therapy can help you cope.
Full-time caregiving can be an extremely stressful, demanding experience that has the potential to ‘burn out' even the strongest, most devoted people. Seeing a therapist might help bolster your coping skills. In addition, you could join a support group for caregivers to get much-needed encouragement and practical advice.
Explore options for getting some respite care for your father. Respite care gives you a break from caregiving, so that you can get some down time for yourself to recover and recharge your batteries.