Dear, Wondering, your peace and strength will come from above. God put in our heart a desire to love and serve, and your joy and rewards will come from above, as well. Know that you can ask God for help, and he will answer you and show you great and mighty things. Your time with your parents/family is limited and precious. Treasure every good memory, because the rest will fade quickly. We have limited time to make a difference, and you are. You are doing for another what they cannot do for themselves, and that is a precious gift of your time and talents. Sending prayers for help and comfort. You can pour out your heart to God and he will listen, give you wisdom and guidance, and love. Know that this time will pass quickly, and it is a privilege you have been entrusted with. May God be with you, and bless you! ~ SS
24/7 is entirely exhausting, txmaggie. It is what I am doing also. One of many ways I acheive balance is to live my life on an entirely different schedule. Early mornings when Mom is sleeping are great for me-time, quiet time, prayer, fellowship and devotion, and sometimes a walk or short drive to get a cup of coffee, or just feel the wind on my face. It requires being very attentive to your Mom's periods of greater and lesser activity, and it has worked for me. Nothing is perfect, but I can't imagine being of any use to myself, or Mom if I didn't enjoy precious moments to myself. Another technique for me is that I don't do laundry daily unless I need to. Other times, I relish seeing an empty hamper! It's the little things that make me happy, which is why I say precious minutes! lol Physical therapy is an exhausting mental process, however. I am sorry that is added to your caregiving routine. The other thing that helps is that I would never have the time, or energy to go to any offline support group. It would be just one added activity to my day, so online support is the way I choose to balance caregiving support resources.
I just read all of these comments & suggestions & it is helpful to hear it all. I KNOW that I need to take care of myself too or I will burnout. My Mom is 83 with dementia & we had a very bad weekend with her. She said she hates me, wanted me to get out of her house and all I am after is her money (there's not much money at all). I tried to comfort her by telling her I love her, I hugged her & looked her in the eyes & talked quietly. Nothing calmed her down. The next day it was like it never happened. Can they have a "blackout" (?) and not remember these outbursts? It's all I can think about. Thanks for any help. Buddy
Thanks for your responses. Yes, I'm here 24/7. Been doing this for almost 2 yrs. Mom is 92, has mild but progressing multi-infarct dementia. Worst part is she knows she's losing it but yet still thinks she can function on her own (she can't). Needs meal prep, medications, frequent checks during the day because of falls. She can't be left alone. Tried the adult daycare for several months but she hated it. I do have a lady coming in one day so I can get errands done. Nurses come in 1x/week and they are starting physical therapy again next week. My husband works away 3 weeks, then home 10 days, so I'm really alone while he's gone. We live way out in the boonies, 1 hr drive to the nearest town and support group and they meet too early in the day for me to get there on the day the lady comes in. Maybe you are right, jellybeans, perhaps antidepressants would help me get out of this funk. And to SecretSister, thank you, also. Knowing there are others out there to offer emotional support is a huge help. I'm so thankful I found this website!
I hope this website will be a lift in your spirit 24/7, too!. It's beauty is that is can reach those in the boonies, and those of us who are loonies. Ha Ha. I love it. Sorry you are struggling. I know my burden seems lighter when I can unload here, or help another. It's been a godsend and a blessing.
Are you getting adequate rest? Are you able to enjoy any type of hobby? I know that's a silly question, if your time is spent caring for your Mom. How about music, or reading (for both of you)? Do you and your Mom laugh together? That can help both of you get out of a funk. Have you ever heard of Laughter Medicine? It's so good for the soul and spirit! How about fresh flowers on a bed tray with a special snack or treat once in awhile? Something out of the ordinary to lighten the moment and brighten the day. Make it a surprise. How about Christmas in July? Or funny hat day? You could tell her to dress up, and paint her fingernails, and serve high tea. Or serve a special breakfast at "txmaggie's cafe," on a cute little table in the living room... Pick out some old music, take Mom by the hands, and tell her you want to dance with her (gently, and while she's seated, of coarse.) Looking at old pictures sometimes gets the juices flowing. OK, you get the idea. Be creative, and it will lighten both of you.
How about a Daughter Appreciation Day? Pretend it's your award ceremony. Bake yourself a cake, and serve your Mom a piece, telling her you got first prize for being the most attentive, loving, caring daughter in your county that day. Make yourself a blue ribbon and pin it on and smile away! Remember how special you are to care for your Mom.
And while you're at it, make a "Welcome Home!" sign for your husband's return. I used to do that for mine when he worked away from home. I'd write a letter of appreciation, and put it on his pillow, and make his favorite meal. It'll make you both feel great.
And if those in support groups are feeling altruistic, perhaps you could ask for a visit one day. How great would that be!? How about a visit from some ladies at a local church? Some may just like getting out themselves. It could be a great blessing to you and your Mom. Thanks for being on these boards. You add a lot to them, and we are glad you're here! Here's praying you find joy in your journey! :) Take care, and please keep posting.
I too am taking of my mother in law (what a job). She as given up on everything and if it was not for my husband taking me shopping and out to dinner this 24/7 job would kill me. Yes it is much harder than working a full time job away from home (I have retired now but this job is harder than anything else in the world. I have lost interest in all my hobbies I had before. I am sooo sad,tired all the time. I only want a little peace. Where do I find it?
Buddy - have experienced same. YES to the blackouts --or blockouts! Its hard and I'm learning as I go along -- but can't take it personally. They are frustrated and if they were private and independent before -- "caregiving" seems more like an intrusion to them than the loving support we intend. I've gotten accused of stealing; money grubbing; trying to take over and then next minute the loving smart daughter "thank God you were here to help". I honestly know my mother although she appears very lucid at times -- truly doesn't mean to be thoughtless and mean; her own inner frustrations with aging just comes out and we just happen to be on the receiving end. I escape to another place, vent to my husband or friends and blow it off -- and prepare to start it all over again.
Are you with her 24/7 at home? Maybe taking her to adult daycare but telling her that she's going to a volunteer place to help others or a senior center would help. A lot of times, they don't like going AT FIRST, but after awhile, they get used to it and really enjoy it. Also, you could have a caregiver come in while you are there, say it's a friend of yours, let her know the caregiver and then leave her with the caregiver or have the caregiver take her somewhere fun like shopping, the hair salon, out to eat. You might benefit from joining a support group, counselling, antidepressants. Do things for yourself, something just for you.
I don't think you can absolutely trust ANYTHING a person with dementia says. They hate you one minute and love you the next. Their back is killing them with pain and then they are raking the lawn saying they feel fine. So....we live in an alternate universe... it's like alice through the looking glass. How really can she refuse outside help though. Someone comes, you leave. What will she do? She can stay in her room I suppose and sulk. Yell at them to leave. But what can she really do?
Calling APS at least will keep you from being charged with neglect to your elderly parent. It has been documented that you tried to help your mom and not ignore her situation. I am all for elderly rights, but not at the expense of their adult children who try and then have their hands tied. The right to chose comes with personal resposibility!
Buddy
Are you getting adequate rest? Are you able to enjoy any type of hobby? I know that's a silly question, if your time is spent caring for your Mom. How about music, or reading (for both of you)? Do you and your Mom laugh together? That can help both of you get out of a funk. Have you ever heard of Laughter Medicine? It's so good for the soul and spirit! How about fresh flowers on a bed tray with a special snack or treat once in awhile? Something out of the ordinary to lighten the moment and brighten the day. Make it a surprise. How about Christmas in July? Or funny hat day? You could tell her to dress up, and paint her fingernails, and serve high tea. Or serve a special breakfast at "txmaggie's cafe," on a cute little table in the living room... Pick out some old music, take Mom by the hands, and tell her you want to dance with her (gently, and while she's seated, of coarse.) Looking at old pictures sometimes gets the juices flowing. OK, you get the idea. Be creative, and it will lighten both of you.
How about a Daughter Appreciation Day? Pretend it's your award ceremony. Bake yourself a cake, and serve your Mom a piece, telling her you got first prize for being the most attentive, loving, caring daughter in your county that day. Make yourself a blue ribbon and pin it on and smile away! Remember how special you are to care for your Mom.
And while you're at it, make a "Welcome Home!" sign for your husband's return. I used to do that for mine when he worked away from home. I'd write a letter of appreciation, and put it on his pillow, and make his favorite meal. It'll make you both feel great.
And if those in support groups are feeling altruistic, perhaps you could ask for a visit one day. How great would that be!? How about a visit from some ladies at a local church? Some may just like getting out themselves. It could be a great blessing to you and your Mom. Thanks for being on these boards. You add a lot to them, and we are glad you're here! Here's praying you find joy in your journey! :) Take care, and please keep posting.
You might benefit from joining a support group, counselling, antidepressants. Do things for yourself, something just for you.
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