On My Mind... 7/17/2010 at 4:40 pm
The saddest part of my life right now, other than my mother being sick, is how my relationship with my 27 year old son has deteriorated these last few years.
...Read MoreThe saddest part of my life right now, other than my mother being sick, is how my relationship with my 27 year old son has deteriorated these last few years.
He's busy, he works all the time, he has a wife and two kids, tells me he's not a kid anymore, but he won't come out and see my mom, he acts like I've changed so much since being here at mom's that he can't deal with the mother I've become. This is so hurtful to me. It breaks my heart, literally makes my heart hut when I think about not seeing my grandbabies very often, or that my own flesh and blood can't understand what life is like for me here with my mom.
He sometimes throws out the word jealous, like I'm jealous of his wife, or when he takes time to visit other people, yet says he has no time to come here. 30 minutes away, and with the very few times I have someone here to watch my mom, I jet out to see the kids. But when I get my feelings hurt because he can go to his aunts for a bbq, who is fifteen minutes away from here, he thinks I'm jealous, too much drama. I can't get him to understand that it's not jealousy, that would mean my position of his mom has been taken, I just need him to understand that any time I can spend with him and the kids is the only thing I have to look forward to, and why can't he care that it's hurts me.
He goes for days not calling me, and I feel uncomfortable when I finally break down, because he still won't sit down with me and let me explain fully how I feel. He never let's me know what's going on in his life much anymore, and I can't deal with this hurt anymore. It's also to me sort of disrespectful of him to not see my mom, even stopping by for 15 minutes, because my mom helped him, like she did this whole family, all throughout her life. Now, they say they can't deal with seeing her this sick. I personally don't care for that excuse, he and my other family members are not children anymore. I'm the only one who has to absorb all the pain and stress of being my mom's caregiver, and they just all seemed to forget about us here.
Don't tell me that I'm being too forceful on my child, I know his family comes first, but then me, his mother, should be next on his list of priorities, and he seems like he doesn't need me anymore, or miss me or anything.
Anything to help ease this pain would be nice.