Alzheimer's disease doesn't discriminate. It strikes men and women, the rich and the poor, the famous and the ordinary. Famous people from Ronald Reagan to Charlton Heston, Rita Hayworth to Norman Rockwell have battled the disease.
TV personality Leeza Gibbons also knows first-hand the shock and potential devastation Alzheimer's can inflict on a family. As host of Entertainment Tonight, and later her own talk show, Leeza Gibbons lived a charmed life, amidst the glitz and glamour of red carpet events and television cameras. But her world was turned upside-down when her grandmother and shortly afterwards, her mother, were both diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease. Leeza's grandmother died several years ago, and her mother, Gloria Jean Gibbons, 72, passed away in May of 2008, after a long and courageous battle with Alzheimer's disease. Gibbons talks about her experience:
AgingCare:
Thinking back, what did you learn about Alzheimer's disease that you didn't know?
Leeza: I wish I had known what a marathon this is…battling Alzheimer's disease is an endurance race, the likes of which I could have never imagined. Although people tried to tell me, I suppose I couldn't quite appreciate at the time how valuable everyday is. Little things become so important. I remember marveling at how mom was capable of such amazing victories, such brilliant blessings in life. Whether it's a disease or not, we tend to focus so much on what's next, we forget to be present for what is now. I wish I had known how much I would come to treasure the sight of my mom heading out the door after she had dressed herself, slip on top of her blouse, two mismatched shoes and her purse over her shoulder.
AgingCare:
How did your mother cope with her diagnosis?
Leeza: I've always found my mother's courage to be amazing. She truly was a steel magnolia. She faced her disease with all the grace and dignity she could muster day by day. And when she put her head on the pillow at night, I can't imagine how that felt, to fast forward into darkness. She showed me what living was all about, showing up doing the best we can.
AgingCare:
Does the family's focus change as the disease progresses?
Leeza: In the beginning, we focused very much on hope and possibilities with my mother. We focused on what she was capable of and how we could enjoy being together. We laughed a lot and I think that's the part of my mom that I miss the most. She approached this disease with humor, heart, dedication and determination, but she was not naïve. She had, after all, seen her mother die the same slow death.
Mom gathered the family around and told all of us the words which were to become incredibly comforting as this disease progressed. She said, "When I kick and scream and call you names, know that is the disease talking. It is not me. And when I no longer know that you are my daughters, my son and my husband then you have to know that is the time that I no longer want to live with you. Leeza, I know you're gonna want to try to fix it, but I don't want to live with you, or your sister or your brother and you're all going to have to help daddy let me go." As a family we reflected on that often. It saved us from the internal sibling fighting that often occurs where one sibling thinks they know best, or the siblings are trying to move the other parent in a particular direction. We had our marching orders and as difficult as they were, we carried them out.
As mom's disease progressed, the caregiving challenge became hardest for my father. There were dignity issues and boundaries that had to be crossed which are uncomfortable for all families who deal with chronic illness or disability. I worried about dad when mom could no longer express her appreciation or her love but instead lashed out with anger at almost everything. I worried about dad when mom would turn around in the kitchen with a spatula in her hand and start swinging at him. I worried about dad every night when he would go to his room and close the door, knowing we were losing him along with my mother. They were married for 55 years, but Alzheimer's disease stole 10 of them.